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You ever have something that you thought you could get over but your brain keeps bringing it up as a subject of discussion internally from all different sides and you're not so sure anymore. And you think of several different reactions but all of them seem too reactionary or devastating in their consequences, so you know you only are left with the one option that is usually taken - to just try and ignore it and remain in a sort of silent hurt and depression. And then you may bring up other issues or problems or situations from the past that didn't quite get resolved to a satisfactory degree and it leaves you even more impotently angry, mind you not necessarily connected in any way or form to the first but just as a reminder of other times you let it pass over and through you without speaking against much at all or putting up more than a little fight at most. And the single option that you keep fantasizing about is just saying fuck it and disappearing.

It may be that work has me too tired and emotionally drained that I'm not seeing that clearly these days, I'm just sick of so much in life...

Current Mood: alone

On my way out I decided to stop on our cafetaria floor, since it's so late almost all the lights are out. There's a little bit of light around the corners, a little red illumination coming from the Exit sign above. I buy a drink from the vending machine and as I'm waiting for the elevator I sort of imagine a creature or killer just stepping from around the corner and facing me in the shadows. I can see it vividly in my mind's eye, just a quiet and almost non-chalant appearance - and I think that's what gives me the scary-fun jolt of fear. How it could almost be normal, no big showy entrance but just a few steps and what was empty is now occupied.

I did this to myself yesterday also, it's one of those thoughts you're not sure you should have but you can't quite suppress. You scare yourself even though you know it's the impossible, the emotion changes to relief and fun as soon as the elevator finally opens up and you jump in and press the button for the Lobby. If you want seconds you could always imagine a hand reaching in and stopping those closing elevator doors before you're safely on your way.

But yeah, two nights in a row working past midnight. Hope there's not a third.

Current Mood: weird

The July Want List
These three would make great July stocking stuffers...

Coraline
&
The State
&
Watchmen

Current Mood: do want

Manhunter: New York / San Francisco
Anybody remember the Manhunter series? I played those games briefly back in the day, I think I had made a copy of the disks my cousins owned. Don't remember ever getting that far but... damn I'm feeling a bit of an itch to play that game series again. It's too bad they never finished the story.

On a separate note, it seems that Photobucket is now blocked on my work computer :/

Current Mood: nostalgic

July 4th
So today I,

catmandux, and

stoneliongrowl headed over to

falconeio's house in New Jersey today. We met up with

battie,

gldm,

jbadger,

smrgol_t_kirin, and

wraithofhell. Watched some television, watched a movie (Murder by Death), had some dinner, then headed over to the Hudson to watch the fireworks.

Some nice display, not much more really needs to be said about today (since I'm incredibly tired right now) so I'll just post pictures below. Oh, and about halfway through the display I found out my camera has a fireworks setting :P

Oh, one more thing, one of the barges caught on fire by the end of the fireworks display. Hard to tell how bad it was, other than it was fairly visible from the distance where we stood. And apparently there was a photography reporter (or just some person who regularly sells pics to the newspapers), so she might have taken some - I'm sure someone took some, so probably hear more about it if I keep an eye open for it.

( Pictures! )

Happy Independence Day!

7/4/09
Happy Independence Day!

Happy Birthday Cat
Happy early birthday to

catmandux, we spent the day doing stuff! First we went out to Union Square with

rjwolf,

plastiger,

wulven,

tigerman,

talliy, and

falconeio to see Up in 3-D. Then we met up with

jimwolf24 and

jdpuppy at Dave and Busters and played lots of games and got shitloads of tickets. Then headed over to the Georgia Diner and had some dinner, even though I hadn't eaten pretty much all day I didn't get too much down.

Now we're here watched Star Trek Voyager and I'm trying to get a bit drunk on Watcher's everclear tea stuff, I'm so out of practice it's already on my way to working :P

Y'know, I need more picture swith friends but it never seems to work out with taking them :/

I'm curious...
Poll #1421672 Anthrocon Attendance
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All

If you attended Anthrocon in 2006, 2007, or 2008, will you attend in 2009?

View Answers

Yes
18 (46.2%)

No
21 (53.8%)

First year attending since it moved to Pittsburgh (no nuts to previous attendance request in poll)
0 (0.0%)

If you selected No, which is the primary reason for skipping this year?

View Answers

Hotel or Travel issues
1 (4.5%)

Timing of the Convention
3 (13.6%)

Financial Situation
8 (36.4%)

Too big to succeed in fun
6 (27.3%)

Other (comment)
4 (18.2%)

Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday to my friend Dave. Hung out at his place today with Derek, Rick, and a few of Dave's friends from work: Steve, Will, Krystal, and Chris. Started out fairly well, we got the grill and began cooking some burgers and dogs but then... the rain! We did manage to cook a fair amount but there was no chance of a kickball game this year. Finally watched Transformer, first time I'd seen that movie, and then it kinda got a little monontonous. They started playing Rockband, for about four hours or so... probably longer since they were still playing when I left :P

I had brought a couple games: Fluxx and Zombies, some dvds - the Kitchen Confidential series. Never got to any of those; just a little bit of food (no cake though), the movie, and lots of a single game. Unfortunately, as happens so often, there's not much variety going on.

It was nice catching up a bit with Rick and Derek; heard through Derek that a friend of ours (though I have to admit I never really knew him that well), Aaron, will be getting married later this year (it'll be his second marriage, he's a few years younger than me).

To make the world a more interesting place
I'm going to burn some music onto a number of cd's and just leave them in random locations for people to find. They'll be labeled something vague, maybe a line from a song or a book or a poem, maybe just simply as Music.

I'll probably need to pick up something to put the discs inside, one of those simple paper slips, so they're not completely vulnerable to the environment.

Now... got to go through my collection and see what's worth sharing, it can't be just any song you know, it's gotta be something odd and interesting and worthwhile.

Current Mood: mischievous
Current Music: Against Me! - What We Worked For

MoCCA 2009
Yesterday I attended the MoCCA Festival, a large exhibit of well known and not so well known comic artists. I didn't want to arrive too early, the thing gets a huge initial wave of people and then sort of evens out during the day - and given that it lasts from 11am until 6pm, you tend to have plenty of time to check out every table. So I arrive about a half hour after it is supposed to open... and see this monstrous line that wraps around the new building (this is its first year at the Armory). Near the end of the line I run into

octavius_rodens, who lets me cut in front of a few people :P

The two of use chat with another guy who was in front of us, Danny, while waiting and waiting and waiting. August gives

mister_f a call, hoping that since he is one of the exhibitors inside we might get the scoop on what's going on. Just a bit of an organization fuck-up regarding a number of things, the line finally starts to move sometime after twelve and we make it inside about quarter to one. This might have been annoying except the organizers gave a bit of a discount to the first major wave of people making it indoors, the cost for a one-day pass was dropped from $10 to $5. That pleased me :)

Now for the shorter but more interesting part of the post. First off we stopped at

mister_f's table, which he shared with

jaymarcy. Both August and I picked up a copy of his new book. While hanging around for a few minutes we ran into

fl0e and scottmale.

This new location was quite a change from the old. The pluses would be that it offered more space, higher ceilings (you appreciate that more when you consider how many people are roaming around an enclosed area), quicker to reach from the subway, and perhaps that everyone was in one spot rather than in an off room where they might be missed. It's weird isn't it, something new might be an improvement overall but I still missed the personality of the old building - sure some people were on the second floor which required cramp, heated elevator rides, and sure sure it could be almost a bit of a maze to get from one end to the other with rooms of varying sizes which had to be explored so you could spot everyone's table - but the place had freakin' personality rather than being just one large square room! Ah well.

I did a once over of the layout before settling on buying anything more. One very large book that was on sale caught my attention with the style of art, reminded me a bit of something from my childhood. I was just finishing the purchase of The Curse of Catunkhamun when some guy started asking me about my shirt. I had picked up this shirt of Bubba the Redneck Werewolf earlier this year at the Comic-Con, so I let him take a couple pictures of it and he starts telling me about his own art. And it turns out that I was already familiar with his art, it was Alex Mancheno who is an artist on FA :P I did find out there was another furry artist at the convention, de Wylfin, who was selling a comic that had a bit with Cerebus. Seeing how I made a post recently concerning the Cerebus comic, I figured I'd buy a copy of that. Got a little annoyed that the artist wasn't prepared with change, if you're going to sell a comic for fifty-cents then you should bring a little, so I ended up buying it for more than its cost.

I made sure to stop by Rick Spears' table again. I've been wanting to see the final two issues of Pirates of Coney Island come out - and last year he said they should be out by the end of the year. Still not sure when the final two issues will be released, and per him he may release them together as a larger issue. He was selling this comic called Black Metal so I figured I'd pick that up in the meantime.
Saw Jacob Chabot's Mighty Skullboy Army table, conveniently next to Joe's table, unfortunately nothing new available since Comic Con earlier this year :/
Some other comics I picked up included Welcome to the Port which was a collection of art plus a short comic, Beyond the Canopy - the cover just reminded me of a game like Maple Story, a two-comic collection of 24 hour comics: Tor the Mini-Taur & Ballad of Basil the Bunny, and Adventure Underfoot which had some cute artwork.
Another other great comic picked up was the first two issues of After-School Agent - the covers, the concept, the art worked for me - and after reading the issues, I made a good choice. After flipping through this three page comic called Alligator Day! I picked that up as well, very cute storyline.

There were some things I just couldn't buy however. I really love Michael DiMotta's art but I just missed an opportunity to buy one of his books (the person in front of me bought the last copy) and unfortunately he didn't sell prints of some of his stuff I really liked.
There were some prints I would have bought under other conditions, one which I thought was too much ($25) and another which unfortunately I bought a similar print last year but still have yet to buy a frame for it so couldn't justify buying another print from that artist - though the print itself is great (one of the mice martial artists). Loved the Hi/Bye Bear but the frame and the t-shirt were a little high cost for my tastes.

When I finally left, I couldn't believe how exhausted I was. Just wandering around checking out comics really can take a lot out of you :P

NYC Meetup
So

catmandux and I met up with

moldred,

jdpuppy, and

octavius_rodens at Starbucks. Hung out for a bit, grabbed some pizza at a nearby joint, then pretty much parted ways.

Need to meet up with more folks in the area, not enough interaction with new folks in this huge city.

NYC Meetup
There's a meet-up tonight at 8pm, at the Starbucks on the corner of 67th Road (Rego Park, Queens).

Attended last month thought it was only I,

catmandux,

stoneliongrowl,

rjwolf, and

plastiger - the organizer wasn't able to make it. This time the organizer dropped a note assuring that he'd attend but so far the only other attendees seem to be myself and

catmandux.

So... anybody else interested in dropping by? Probably won't last long or accomplish much other than meet some other people in the area, I'll probably stop at a nearby diner or pizza joint afterwards for dinner.

EDIT:
On a sidenote, this weekend is MoCCA. I'm planning to attend on saturday.

RIP Bill
Actor David Carradine was found dead in a hotel in Thailand.

The movie business will not be the same without him :(

Current Mood: sad